shortcuts

wanting can be better than having – Andy Warhol

so much depends on the sincerity of others
this war on trust
endless

embracing vulnerability
is a future performance

fragile like sugar cubes in a thunderstorm
your social context is showing

sacrifice becomes dramatic interpretation
when binaries are bound in whiteness

a lead
a follow
a gap between

solemnity

ca·pac·i·ty
/kəˈpasədē/
noun
1. the maximum amount that something can contain
2. the ability or power to do, experience, or understand something

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Clarice Lispector, from an Interview with Clarice Lispector – São Paulo, 1977
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the Midwest anchors to Sunday morning morality pitches
while frozen hams slow cook in roasters or crock-pots
tables are pre-set and ready for Jesus’ spirit to share grace

did I not mention the middle broke wide open?
after graveyards were found beneath children’s playgrounds
those who were most paranoid contested language and grief

birds adjusted their crescendo to the neighborhood noise
maintaining community by adding beauty to the conflict
as gray clouds rose full and heavy from night’s darkness

oh shame, your capacity is not bound by any treaty or confrontation
that’s why working factory walls are painted white on white on white
churning out spirals of soft sounds as redemptive promises aggravate

all these gently held moments are where silence performs
when fascination becomes bound to the collective
or right before we discover ceremony is ours to prove

find a way

It’s sweet
And it’s sad
And it’s true

– REM, Oh My Heart

December 31, 2015
Here
waves mimic earth’s rise and fall
a frequency known as home

Here
hills slope at similar angles
nearly invisible expressions

Here
fog settles thick as love
a passive reflection

Here
place contours memories
the body an unreliable narrator 

Here
we are
whole

incantations

The best training is to read and write, no matter what. Don’t lie with a lover or roommate who doesn’t respect your work. Don’t lie, buy time, borrow to buy time. Write what will stop your breath if you don’t write. — Grace Paley

August 1, 2017 4:37pm
the distance between desire and longing
is roughly equidistant from rest to action
an example of survival often mistaken for apathy

she sewed buttons into her hair
a dramatic effect predicated on a mastery
of threading security into her technique

as we battle for restoration
peered juries declare in tandem
forcing over-reliance on pardons

such concealment illuminates justice
that eclipse is yours to influence
subtle benedictions common as moon rises