blue above, blue below

“the body breaks, your needs consume you forever” – “Else”  Built to Spill

Sam Francis, Untitled (Marko's Rain) April14
Sam Francis, Untitled (Marko’s Rain) Hirshhorn, DC April14

we were slow to feel spring’s arrival
catalogs of ideas laid fallow
buried beneath quiet desires
soft as breath resisting exhalation
easy as misinterpreting epoch for epic

just last week the sidewalk read:
this is the point I lost all hope
only to be rubbed away days later
absorbed into our patterns as unchecked tension
doubts deep as distance begets neglect

lost in our own understanding
of wanting nothing
except to fix these regrets
after seeing how strong resistance can get
enduring over and over again

finding instead all those ways we feel unafraid
how gestures become routines
pleasure as a way of practice
reflections of asking: more
wanting that space between witness and memory

im alltag*

this time of year
the graffiti changes
curves are softer
shadows more gentle
every line an opening
to center our attention

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*German for “in everyday life”